Lost My Soulmate
On sunday march 4th i had to have my special 13 year old border collie called lillie put to sleep. she had kidney problems and arthiritis, she had struggled for a while but always wanted to keep going. up until last friday she was still wagging her tail and barking.on saturday morning she was really sick and couldnt stand, i took her to the vet who said see how she goes over the weekend. she didnt want to eat or drink and couldnt stand, i slept downstairs with her and all night hoped by morning she would of improved but she got weaker. on sunday i took her to the emergency vets and we had to let her go. im devestated, she was my reason to get up in the morning and i spent all my time with her, i just cant cope without her. i keep crying and just want to stroke her. my main fears are what if she had got better and i let her go and also what if after she was put sleep she woke up, i have all these fears, i cant sleep, so sad. any advice would be appreciated, many thanks.