Lost My Big Brother, Nephew, & Niece

[LoveMy3Angels]

This is the first Christmas without my Brother(30), Nephew(5), and Niece(2). I'm heart broken. They were all lost on June 11, 2010 in the Arkansas flood. My sister-in-law and my brother's son from a previous relationship survived and I hold as tight to them as they will let me. I just feel sick because my brothers birthday is the 29th. I'm trying to make this a good Christmas for my 2 children, when really I want to scream my head off. My brother was the glue to my family. My dad left us when I was 5 and my brother just stepped up and took care of me and my little brother. It still hurts like it was yesterday. I have nightmares and then normal dreams about them. I just need some people to talk to.