8 years and I still find myself sobing
My grandmother raised me from a baby, it was her and I against the world. I was a dumb teen at the time of her death, but the moment she died I felt so wronged. I was happy she wasn't suffering anymore because she had been batteling cancer for a few years by then. But I felt so alone and I miss her with every fiber in my body. She was my best friend, and I don't know how I can get to a place where I can accept I will never see her again. After all these years I still have this feeling she's right around the corner. The day before she died I was telling her how things would be ok and I would be fine, because hospise told me they will linger in pain if they feel they are needed and she barely got out an, "I love you" to me and the feeling and those words feel like hours ago and I just can't stop crying. I don't know what to do. Sorry for grammar, I'm just writing off feelings.